!!!LIONS ROAR!!!

02:57 pm

Well, it's happened! I tried to be nice and have an open, public Jounral.....

BUT


Because of rude people, and quite a few teen agers that didn't quite get it, my journal is now friends only.

Comment to be added, have your full birth date in your information, or it won't happen.
This journal is


PLEASE DON'T ADD ME TO YOUR LIST FIRST!
Ask and wait

03:20 pm - OH BOY! Funny Meme

If you and I woke up in jail together.......using only 4 words........what would you say to me??!!

Afterward copy and paste as your status and see the different responses you get.

Toadie

Current Mood: chipper

11:57 am - Death of "Independents"

( Cut for length, please do read! :) )

Current Mood: awake

06:17 pm - Ok, another for those RPers out there.

this is an interesting additional tool for the RPers out there. Yes I know a few that will like this....... "S" "C"

http://www.snapbuzz.com/video/9012

Toadie

Current Mood: content

02:37 am - WOW! JUST WOW!!

Well, you know the republicans said that President Barack Obama would need a major win or he would never amount to anything........

Well......http://www.cnn.com/2009/WORLD/europe/10/09/nobel.peace.prize/

WIN!

Toadie

Current Mood: Proud!

02:24 pm - October crown surprise!

Ok Uther won Crown, and then he........well......watch the vid. ;)

http://www.youtube.com/user/housesigurgata#play/all/1/hRCOVGDl5Uo

Toadie

Current Mood: happy

02:17 am - he he he he COMIC!

For you gamers out there, yes that mean you, you know who you all are:

http://www.twolumps.net/comics/20091002.jpg

Toadie

Current Mood: giggly

04:46 am - Hello there, I'm back, I think?

Hey there everyone, sorry if I haven't been commenting on your journals, I lost my computer for about a month..........*cry* BUT!!!! Thanks to a really cool and awesome friend of mine (MAX) I have it back and it's working.

So a lot has happened over the last month. I have a girlfriend that is talking about coming and moving in with me. It's going to be interesting. I'll tell you all more later. but for now it's 0450 hrs and well time I should go to bed. night night all

Toadie

Current Mood: happy

04:51 pm - OK! THATS IT!!!!!!! WARNING PISSED OFF TOADIE!!!

You know what?? This post is for you LiveJournal people out there, no one I know personally, but the others out there. You fucking think you fucking know me? You think you know what I'm thinking? You think you know who I am and what I am and shit? WELL YOU FUCKING DON'T!!!!!!

Apparently my last post lost me a LJ friend. No big deal, no big thing. I politely left them a message saying the following......

"You De-friended me? Well ok, I will see you around. :(

Toadie"

You know what this person wrote back?? You know what they said? Obviously not understanding and miss reading what my last post was about SHE, note I said SHE decided to lambaste me in her journal......

"After that last whiny nice guy entry, I felt like it was necessary. Your life may suck and you may be depressed, but women do NOT owe you sex, and you probably won't get much of it by acting like the world is doing you a disservice by not fucking you. Get out of the house and talk to people. It might cheer you up some."

YOU KNOW THE FUCK WHAT?!?!?! It wasn't about sex! it was about getting fucked over by people! I fall in love with some fucking girl and they eventually hurt the fuck out of me!! It wasn't about sex!! I haven't had sex in almost 3 fucking years, and this..........GIRL, comes along and ASSumes I am being a male chauvinist pig!! You know what, READ MORE OF MY JOURNAL! LOOK AT MY FUCKING PROFILE!!!! You will see that I try VERY hard not to be.

So, here it is, if you have reasons for thinking I'm some ass, some jerk, some beer swilling (eww beer) jack ass.......GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY JOURNAL!! I have had it with people, I have enough crap going on in my life, I don't need people in my LJ friends who are obviously shallow or brainless enough to think that when I make a post it's me whining about not having girls at my feet because they "owe me".

There are plenty of people who know damned well that I only expect a few things from people, even people I help out am there for them anytime..........an open mind, respect, and kindness back sometimes. Never expect sex from anyone. And if any of you here do think I "expect" sex from you.......GET THE FUCK OFF MY LJ!

I really do try to be nice, kind, complimenting, honest (brutally most times), and not so depressed.........but this one was WAY WAY WAY out of line! Some of you I know well, and I love......Some of you I barely know, but I know you are very nice, cool people that probably will be loving you soon. But really I don't "Expect" anything from anyone, and now I really don't even expect those things I mentioned up there anymore. But if you can't give me at least that, then you better un-friend me now.

And people wonder why I get depressed..........*sigh*

Edward.......Toadie........Apparent Male Chauvinist Pig......

Current Mood: Pissed and Depressed

04:40 pm - OH BOY!

Well nothing was ever truer in my life than what this comic says right here........



It's funny though, I always get this hurt feeling when I find out who the girl is with, because it makes me feel that I'm obviously worth less than the jack ass they are with now, and it makes me feel as though I'm just shit all together.

Maybe that's why I haven't had a real girlfriend in years. I stopped putting up with being treated like crap, although I seem to let ANYONE use me. *sigh*

Toadie

Current Mood: confused

10:46 pm - Hey Strangers

So, I guess it's been a while since I have been in here talking to you all. So, I have a new roommate, new friends on SL (http://www.secondlife.com), and other fun things.

So, real friends seem to be getting more and more distant, no one wants to come visit me or take me out, and no one wants to even socialize, so to me this is a hint that maybe I need new friends, or to move, like to the east coast. Seem to have a lot more acquaintances out there. No Idea right now. Only reason some of my friends are even coming around is apparently because my roomie is cute. She is, but you would think they would come around anyways.

Well, I don't expect any responses to this, it's a downer, and I know I have lost friends in the past because they couldn't handle my downer moods. Meh, fuck 'em. I'm tired of caring what others think about me, or whatever. Seems every time I care for someone or do something caring for them, their only response is to ignore me or fuck me over in some way.

Sooooooooo, Yeah.......it's another one of those irritated "I'm lonely, and moody" posts. Maybe I should just cut my LJ and stop associating with anyone. People tell me "You should take more chances, you make more friends." No I take more chances, and I get more knives in my back, or used, or abandoned, or whatever.

In the virtual world I have many friends that seem to care, in the real world, it seems that walking all over me is a statement of knowing me, everyone does it, I mean I have a life sentence of crap because of one person. I'm just tired of it. People wonder why I have thoughts of dying or killing myself, or why I feel useless. WELL DUH!!! You fucking think?!?!?

Sorry, ending this before I get really bad. Goodnight. Not Goodbye, yet.........

Toadie

Current Mood: depressed

07:57 pm - meme hope you all feel like answering.

INFO
1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4. IM:
5. What are you studying/What are you working as:
6. What makes you happy:
7. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
8. Weirdest food you like:
9. An interesting fact about you:
10. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
11. Favorite place to be:
12. Favorite lyric:
13. Best time of the year:
14. Put a picture of yourself:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4. A band:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

Current Mood: upset

11:18 pm - What has Toadie been up to:

Well lets see, as of late I have been severely abusing my time locked in my apartment.

Well now, I have been playing.......well it's not really a game so it's not really played, so I have been on Secondlife (http://www.secondlife.com) quite a lot and seem to be making quite a few friends. some are talking about wanting me to be an On-line DJ, or talk radio guy. Meh, maybe, I don't know right now.

OH! I'm enjoying quite a few web comics, here I'll include the URL's for you all.

CTRL+ALT+DEL (http://cad-comic.com/comic.php) One of the original geek comics.

VG Cats (http://www.vgcats.com/comics/) Gamer comic.

Yet Another Fantasy Gamer Comic (http://yafgc.shipsinker.com/) Yep! You guessed it Fantasy Gamer comic. (LOL)

The Devils Panties (http://www.thedevilspanties.com/) FUNNIER THAN HELL! And the comic artist behind the strip is a really hott lookin redhead!

Questionable Content (http://www.questionablecontent.net/) Ongoing humor about folks living in an apartment building. Good art, and funnier than hell!

Neko The Kitty (http://www.nekothekitty.net/) Kitty Humor

Two Lumps (http://www.twolumps.net) More kitty humor

Well other than all of that, and trying to keep my head above water as far as bills and food goes, I'm doing ok I guess. I get a box of food every Friday from a group that only charges me $20 a month for it. It's good stuff, a lot of Trader Joe's Left overs, and veggies up the wazoo.

Not exactly what I'm supposed to do with 10 pounds of chopped onions? (LOL) But if anyone living in or around the Sacramento area wants some nice veggies and fruit that I could never eat on a weekly basis, just let me know. Honest, I tried it one time, 6 heads of lettuce, few bunches of spinach, 5 stalks of celery, and fruit. When the next batch came, I had only finished like half of the previous one.

There is extras on bread and other things too, the odd romance novel too, not my thing. ;)

Well till next time all, ta ta, and safe paths.

Toadie, Edward (RL), Nigma Sterling (in SL)

Current Mood: content

06:33 am - First Church of Wicc Closing.... (RANT WARNING!)

( Cut to protect the innocent )

Current Mood: pissed off

01:02 am - .............life

You know, I wonder what the hell it takes to get one thing.....love. Patiently I wait, and I get hurt, one right after the other. Life hurts, not really sure why I keep on trying these days lately, only goal I have it May 20th. I live alone, and cold, an empty. Sometimes it seems as though even my close friends don't want me around.

Thanksgiving came around, no one, nothing. My birthday, nothing. I have a friend here on LJ that wishes EVERYONE a happy birthday in their blog, except me, 3 years now, nothing. Christmas, I'll be alone again. Am I doing something wrong? I am loving, I try to help, and to be a friend as much as possible, all I get is ignored or treated like it's a HUGE chore to even be nice to me at all.

Maybe it's just time to go away, why bother anymore. Lately people have been treating me really crappy, as if I'm not only an after though, and also as if I'm to be kicked and belittled, ignored, treated as if I'm scum.

I guess it doesn't help that this is the worst time of the year for me thanks to.......yeah.....never mind.

May 20th, and maybe I'll make myself free, in my own way, I don't know. being totally alone hurts so much. *sigh*

sorry, I'll try not to post anything depressing next time. Bye

Edward

Current Mood: worthless

12:51 am - Great commentary!!!!

Current Mood: numb

06:34 pm - Always remeber, Always Fight!

Original
Als die Nazis die Kommunisten holten,
habe ich geschwiegen;
ich war ja kein Kommunist.

Als sie die Sozialdemokraten einsperrten,
habe ich geschwiegen;
ich war ja kein Sozialdemokrat.

Als sie die Gewerkschafter holten,
habe ich nicht protestiert;
ich war ja kein Gewerkschafter.

Als sie die Juden holten,
habe ich geschwiegen;
ich war ja kein Jude.

Als sie mich holten,
gab es keinen mehr, der protestieren konnte.

Translation
When the Nazis came for the communists,
I remained silent;
I was not a communist.

When they locked up the social democrats,
I remained silent;
I was not a social democrat.

When they came for the trade unionists,
I did not speak out;
I was not a trade unionist.

When they came for the Jews,
I remained silent;
I was not a Jew.

When they came for me,
there was no one left to speak out.
-------------------------------------------

Remember, they might think they won, but you know in your minds that the war still rages on. Equal rights for everyone, or the war rages on!

Edward

Current Mood: angry

06:06 pm - Uh oh Twitter?!?!?!?

Yes I'm on Twitter now, come follow me. Or at least try. (LOL)

http://twitter.com/ToadiedeOgre

Toadie

Current Mood: exhausted

02:55 pm - Quick, short, and needed

Please consider copying this sentence into your livejournal if you are (or would be) in a heterosexual, non-same-sex marriage, and you don't want it "protected" by the bigots who think that gay marriage hurts it somehow.

I'm against 8, even though I can't vote, for the same reason most people are, it's just not right.

BUT, there is also the reason that everyone should be against it, it's the top to a VERY slippery hill.

#1. Only same sex
#2. Only same race??
#3. Only non-smokers??
#4. Only those that are loyal to the state??
#5. Only in christian churches??
#6. Only those who are genetically pure?? (1939 Germany?)

Yeah the start to a slippery hill.

"and when they came for me, there was no one left to defend me."

Toadie {Ogre wishing he could vote}

Current Mood: irritated

06:13 pm - Wonder........

You know, sometimes I wonder just whats going on in the minds of others...........

I helped a friend out by finding them a place to live, it was the apartment right downstairs to me. It was all good, till they moved in and the air conditioner was out. They spent 2 weeks with out anyone coming to look at it. even then they didn't fix it right. So it was a month, and about 8-9 of those days were of 100 deg. outside. so they gave a 30 day notice and moved. Much to the owners and managers anger. So be it, it's their own fault.

So now this is where I get involved in this. I got $100 off my rent for getting them in here. Well now the owner wants it back. I said ok, I'll give it to you in next months rent, and he agreed. So we come to today, and the every so stealthy drop and knock from the manager, leaving me a 3-day notice to pay or quit on the $100. I guess the owners word is worth nothing.

Yes I know legally he has no right, but as I am not very liked at all, I can see this ballooning into a reason to give me an irreversible 30-notice. Honestly I wouldn't know what to do then, I don't think I could find a place, not with everything that's restricting me. Maybe this is the end of things.

See there, all it took was a underhanded Slumlord, and a lying bitch manager to end everything. After all I have been through to stay strong, and fight the dark inside me........I guess this might finally be it. So be it.......If I don't totally give in, I know there will be a darker me to come out of all this..........if I come out of it.

Slowly loosing it,
Edward

Current Mood: Gone